Weekend Ramblings

Its been quite an exhausting week….

My car broke and it is still in the auto shop…that happened during his birthday too…

I’ve come to accept that it is what it is… I’ve cried, I’ve gotten mad, and now I’ve accepted it.

Gym had been running and changes are happening, sometimes I’m still a little bitter about how things are but generally I’m grateful for having people that cared for me.

My personal life had been…interesting. I’m a functional adult with occasional ugly breakdowns and I’m a therapist for everyone else except for myself.

I woke up at 6am this morning to realize that I’ve lost another friend in Malaysia. 2022 is definitely a year I am not liking currently. I do hope that things will turn around but, just at this moment, things are looking pretty grey.

I’ve been also getting out of Vermont and spending time away from Vermont. I love the people I’m working with in Vermont but at this moment, my heart wants to leave. I don’t know if things will change, I can only talk about right now.

I have people asking if I want to sell the gym, honestly, I’ve thought about it but not right now. I believe when it is the right time, I will be able to let it go. I owe it to all those who chose to stay behind with me & Jozef. It was his dream, it was his pride, so as of now, I want to keep it going for everyone who loved him.